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CHINESE NEW YEAR
AHHH XIN NIAN YAO DAO LE! I'm pretty excited but I have ignored my pile of homework in the midst of all the excitement. And I can't get away from this sudden obsession of checking back on st. nicks people. I have no idea why this obsession came this year (which is so long after PRI SCH).....I just kind of miss those people, especially the netballers except I have no idea of how to contact them except perhaps kimberly whom I always wish her happy birthday on her birthday. I know this is pathetic but oh well. I have since then resorted to facebook. I have begun to realise the advantages of such a simple network website. I just have this sudden shock in my head that I have immersed so well into Nanyang life that I never once paused to think about st nicks...which I would say is brilliant yet hehe terrible.
The last match was way better for me. I feel more hope that I at least improved from the last crappy match and stopped acting blur. I want my ankle to recover ASAP! THEN I WILL BE BACK TO NORMAL!
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TOMORROW
Okay on to more positive and less confusing things. I hope we can pick ourselves up and play like we usually do. I know we can do it. And we will go all out all the way. And hopefully, I'll return to my normal self before feb 13. I just realised it's the day after investiture. How wonderful. I seriously hope walking around in heels is not going to affect my condition. Although I have heard terrible things from the physiotherapist already but it's not like I can excuse myself from not wearing court shoes. It would be ridiculous.
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UGH.
I know I shouldn't be rushing myself. But there is this desperate need to rush. I really hated it the last match. I mean it was super disappointing. The shooters obviously needed more opportunities to shoot and the defence couldn't get any mostly because I was slow. My play completely sucked. I knew it before anyone could tell me. Ugh. I'm toooooo sloowwww. TOO SLOW TOO SLOW TOO SLOW! And my ankle isn't getting any better. It's like giving me this irritating pain or I don't know, sore feeling everytime I stop running or something. I hate being slow. I think I'm the kind of person that needs to train continously and not stop for 1.5 weeks. If not, I come back and just screw everything up. Which is why I keep telling myself I need to train like crazy. I know it's rushing but there is this need for it! Our team is a defensive team. It's so obvious from the start and we need to intercept. And it's not helping that I'm slow and lost on court. I don't know what's taking my ankle so long. I can't believe the physiotherapist said it's supposed to take 4-6 weeks and lets me go back for training after 3 weeks because I could jump on the bouncy soft trampoline for long and jump on the hard ground for 5 seconds. And I can't believe that my ankle is really like some torn ligament or don't know what serious ligament thing. I meant, I could already walk properly 2 days after spraining. How can it be that serious? So there must be something wrong with me! With my ankle or healing abilities or my coordination or speed. UGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. And I wish the whole ankle thing can be resolved first in 3 days with some miracle formula but that is impossible although I know that nothing is impossible. It's not logical unless I just rot at home without walking around or something. Taping isn't helping my left ankle either. It's getting the pain too. I don't understand why at all. My ankle just wants to zuo dui with me. Walk- FINE. PE- still FINE (except when I twist or stretch it accidentally somehow which I don't even know how). COURT WORK, LONG SHORT RUNS- NOT FINE. Why can't it just be fine where I need it to be most?! Yeah, I'm told to relax, calm down, don't train. Sometimes, I really really wish I could be a doctor and diagnose myself. Or maybe I wished some relative of mine is a physio cum doctor or a specialised biology professor who is extremely knowledgable about lousy ankles who get sprained. Then maybe I get to know exactly why this is happening and what I can do to speed up the process. I can't keep going to the physio FOREVER. It's going to cost and it's not going to work. I just want to go back and train like crazy and be back to my usual self.
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ONE HUNDRED!
Now after venging my anger, on to happier things.
I CAN TRAIN TOMORROW! I CAN TRAIN TOMORROW! I CAN TRAIN TOMORROW! YESSSSS!
And minor point but still super great to me: MAN U IS CATCHING UP ON LIVERPOOL. YAYY! MAN U GO!
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SOME GENTLEMAN.
This is my 99th post and I'm not posting the good news coz I'm saving it for the big one.
I'M SO FREAKING IRRITATED WITH MY BROTHER. HE IS SO SUCKY! I ASKED HIM TO GIVE OUT 10 SURVEYS (WHICH INCLUDES HIMSELF SO TECHNICALLY IT'S 9) AND HE ONLY MANAGES TO GET ONE AND GIVES ME SOME LAME AND LOUSY EXCUSE THAT HIS FRIENDS DON'T WANT TO DO. I BET HE'S SOME ANTISOCIAL FREAK IN CLASS SO HE ONLY HAS LIKE 1 FRIEND. STUPID GUY. HE DOESN'T EVEN THINK OF WAYS TO GIVE OUT EVERYTHING AND FINISH HIS TASK. WHAT KIND OF LOUSY JOB IS THIS?! AND I GAVE HIM 4 WHOLE DAYS TO DO IT! I GAVE HIM ON MONDAY AND ASKED HIM TO RETURN EVERYTHING BY THURSDAY! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. THAT'S THE SLOGAN OF ADIDAS WHICH IS HIS FAVOURITE BRAND. THAT VAIN GIT WEARS ADIDAS EVERY TIME AND HE CAN'T EVEN APPLY WHAT HIS CLOTHES BRAND IS ADVOCATING IN LIFE. GO TO HELL, CHIN YU HENG. I CAN'T BELIEVE MY TEACHER ACTUALLY SAID SJI GUYS ARE GENTLEMANLY. MAYBE GERMAINE'S BROTHER IS BUT MY BROTHER IS CLEARLY THAT BIG ONE EXCEPTION. HE SUCKS BIG TIME. HE IS THE SABOTAGER OF HIS SCHOOL'S IMAGE. I MEAN HIS RESULTS ALREADY SUCK LIKE CRAP. SINCE PSLE HE HAS NEVER BEATEN ME ONCE. AND HE CAN'T EVEN DO A SIMPLE JOB OF GIVING OUT 9 SURVEYS! AND IT'S NOT LIKE I'M PUTTING HIM IN A SPOT BY GIVING HIM SURVEYS WHICH ARE IN CHINESE. FOR GOD'S SAKE THERE'S ENGLISH TRANSLATION TOO! IT'S SO CONVENIENT. MY BROTHER SUCKS. MY BROTHER SUCKS. MY BROTHER SUCKS. HE IS SO IRRESPONSIBLE AND USELESS. IDIOT. NO WONDER HE ALWAYS SKIPS NPCC. NO AIM IN LIFE. HE SUCKS BIGTIME.
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2 more to 100
I'm amazed at my blogging progress. But I know I have to stop soon. This is still like the midst of honeymoon period for me.
Anyway, physio today was more bearable. I guess I'm a whole lot better now. Really. Except when I twist the back of my ankle then it REALLY hurts. But I'm fine. Lynette's ankle training thing which you stand on one foot is actually kind of true! The physio made me do it today! Only the difficulty was raised- I had to stand on this wobbly disc thing and balance the whole time. AHHH. And you know how clumsy I am, I keep getting off balanced. But I feel so much more optimistic about my progress. The last session he told me I TORE that ligament at my ankle and I was like: TORE?! I thought sprains do not equal tears. Thank god I can recover. I think he just meant sprain. I'm just not sure whether when I get back, I'll be back to normal. I think there will be this yin1ying3 that when I jump, I will land super carefully. But I think looking at round 1's groupings there's no time for me to be all carefully and xiao2jie3 on court. Must work hard like crazy!
Dental was crazily speedy. I think I went in for 2 minutes and came out. HAHAHA. So I managed to go for training. I took a bus back and fell asleep on it until I heard the blasting ipod music from the lady beside me. Takes a lot to wake me up...
Ah I still feel regretful about training. Cannot move and all. Like stand there, look at the ball ( ALWAYS OF COURSE) and react to it. I feel so awkward and stiff in the school uniform looking at everyone jump and move and run... Ah well, I suppose I'll be doing it SOON. I realise how much I dislike being in school uniform. I feel so STIFF! Maybe I got too used to my holey pe shirt and jersey and fbts. Or I just got fatter and my uniform got tighter. Either way.
I can't wait to move again. I hope I haven't lost my already quite slow reaction to the ball. I'm praying hard, keeping my fingers and toes crossed I haven't. Ah, I think I should do some exercise but I dunno what I can do. In my ankle's state, I don't dare to go swim and do freestyle especially. What if I kick like super hard from the wall and aggravate it. I always use brute strength. UGH. I hate to be so careful. Coz it's so hard.
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AGAIN!
I decided to double post because I'm kept awake with this weird throbbing pain at my ankle after icing. It seems to have gotten worse somehow. Weird really. Maybe it's temporary. I just realised Yanquan posted on my blog and seeing how she wants to communicate through blogging, I shall respond for now when I am still free.
Okay, the whole point about me being smart is really stereotypical. Because there are also a whole lot of other areas for me to improve. And life isn't really about getting all the A1s but also understanding the knowledge and really applying it in real life. It probably isn't the case for me now because I always feel like exam is a hurdle you cross and after you cross you heave a sigh of relief which is one that is huge and you probably forget all you have learnt in the process of sighing. Which isn't the point of learning. So I'm not perfect. Thanks for being proud of me though. But I'm not that brilliant really. 一山还有一山高。And you should talk to us more often, maybe go down to court more? I think I'm not the best person to tell you that because for the past 2 years, I haven't been going down to court. And not even this year because I'm so occupied with things and I'm always in this tired mood to go to court. I just want to go to class, stare blankly at the board, think about what I'm going to do for the day and before I know it, the bell rings. So maybe I should go down to court too. Hah. But I always walk and no one is there and will probably be the first person there but I'll just drop dead and fall asleep there which is embarrassing. I hate sitting in the dark anyway. I prefer a brighter place to think hard about the day. Okay, the last few parts I say doesn't really apply to you so never mind. But you can talk to us. Anyway I heard you are going to have training soon so we will probably meet. Okay maybe not but still, we will meet somewhere, somehow, sometime.
Although I do admit your classroom isn't a strategic location.
Oh oh and I don't know why it's the school term and I'm crazy over 2 movies I want to watch right now: 赤壁II and Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea. Ah, the japanese film is by the guy who created Howl's Moving Castle! How can I miss it? And 赤壁II is now the epic battle! OMG I really really want to watch it. But HOW??? No one going to watch with me and no money. My parents sure don't allow... Unless I sneak out myself and say I'm going for some project meeting. But I've never done that before and it's kind of betraying. I doubt I will find it online...
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ROAD TO RECOVERY
I decided to blog about my very eventful and packed day which ultimately revolved round healing my poor ankle.
There was the fun bonding session during PCCG which I couldn't play crocodile coz I couldn't run although I love playing it and the debrief which didn't link up so well coz it was all impromptu. Then, lessons were fine and we had recep comm meeting when I was supposed to be doing recess patrol but it was so rushed anyway. Then, I went for recess patrol, then was late for GM because of it when I was supposed to go for the netball meeting at the heritage centre. See, I can't split myself into two despite the many things I have. How sad. And it's only week 1 and I have so many things clashing. And I realised I'm going to be in charge for CSM (I think). I didn't really get a very good glimpse.
Now to the very eventful physiotherapy session.
This physiotherapist was the very same guy who treated my fractured right arm when I was 5 so whoever laughed at the injury list which I wrote, don't laugh because I feel this weird nostalgia. And he's a crazy golf fanatic which I didn't know when I was 5 but I now know that he's even very PRO with a single handicap. The whole place has golf clubs and golf balls. Quite interesting really. Then came the first thing. He started rotating my ankle and then did this laser thing to relieve my pain (which was rather absent because I could only feel tightness and occasional spurts or how do you describe it). Then there was this gel thing which was supposed to be ultrasound but I couldn't feel a thing. After that I did this strengthening thing for my ankle. Which I have to continue doing for the rest of my life every morning. 3 reps (10 counts each), 2 exercises. And then, I had this being electrocuted thing. It is kind of like acupuncture coz it shoots out electric currents into your ankle which was kind of painful at first, then turn ticklish and became numb for me, but after about 10 minutes, you stop complaining because you get used to it. But I was icing while getting electrocuted and lying down almost the whole time. And I occupied my time by reading newspapers which I think my dad would probably have disapproved of because it's bad for my eyesight but he didn't care then. After that, he tapped my ankle and showed me how to do it. And only then did I finally learn my lesson: Taping ankle works more than wearing ankle brace. And I have to keep strengthening my ankle if not it will just get weaker on its own. How great, so I am officially joining the taping gang. Only this time, I can tape my ankle myself.
I think it's quite okay. The session was 45 minutes and it's 60 dollars. Hah, cheaper than Ms Lin's one. I have quite a few namecards so I can help to do free advertising. HEHEHE.
SOT was okay. Quite a non-participating class. I didn't talk that much either. The teacher's outgoing and stuff but there's homework. Although I suppose it's the work and effort put in that helps me to improve. But I love the style of one-to-one and keeping up to date with everyone. It's great. Hate the transport and timing though. I wanted to drop dead and sleep the minute I got home but I have to bathe and ice my ankle and all. How nice. Which explains why I'm still up at 11.22pm. GREAT.
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SORRY!
Ah I'm so sorry for the outburst. I'm too frank sometimes or I can't just control myself. I admit I do get too emotional sometimes. I'm fine now too. I realise I'm someone who forgets things easily. I shall just concentrate on trying to recover now. Actually I thought that this sprain wouldn't be as bad as the sec 2 one. But after I got a lift home, I realised I can't really walk much; more like at a snail's pace. And now I'm going to be even slower than my mom at walking. This sucks because she's going to get revenge for all my teasing at her. And I hope my dad will not give me the safety first talk again. And how I was obviously being unsafe again. I do not want to go for 推拿 because I will really freak out and break down a second time if I go for that. Maybe I should go for physio but right now I'm praying I can survive without going to any doctor. And my house, no room, isn't the ideal environment for nursing a bad ankle. I now realise I like keeping hazards around me. Hopefully, I can find a space to ice my ankle properly and do my homework later at the same time. And I can find a way to go to school without my dad turning in if not my brother will take the chance to complain about me. I hope there's no math period tomorrow so I won't need to climb up 4 levels. Most of all, I hope I can recover in 3 days.
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NETBALL
I realised I'm at my 94th post. This is the first time I'm going so far with a blog. I remembered the last few times I deleted it and restarted again. Now I know even if it's kept dead, just keep it for the memories.
Yesterday was a great day of cca selections. Somehow, the standard drops further every year. But oh well, as Mrs Tan put it at camp, every generation has their own strengths and weaknesses. But I think this batch is more promising with more ex-netballers and it seems like quite a few of them are willing to join. I hope nanyang netball will be stronger than ever after our batch graduates. I have faith that somehow they will make it.
Brownie baking was exhausting. Because we kept failing and silly Peishan was getting me to crack an egg. Jeez. But I love eating brownies except that I will get fat after too much. I hope the sec ones can appreciate the brownies because it's such hard work. And I pray hard and hope that Peishan and Nicolette's second session of brownie baking today went well and successful. I think it should though, since there will be Peishan's mom and Nicolette's maid who are both PROs. I think overall it was great CSS fun. I'm really sorry for messing up the kitchen too. But Peishan totally sucks more. She drips mix on the tray and flicked drops of them mix on my UNIFORM!
Today was tiring because of telematch. I'm sorry that I couldn't really shout much and stuff because I had to save my voice for training but apparently I ended up not using much of it. Battleship wasn't that fun but the logistics/manpower are seriously way lesser. I guess everybody enjoys a little bit of action. But moving those benches and tables back seriously is a LOT of work. Hope the sec ones really enjoyed it though and will remember it.
Training wasn't super exhausting. At least I wasn't dead after it although I was so tired I kind of dozed off in chem and chinese. But I'm going to make up for the lack of sleep later in 1 hours' time. We ROCK AND ROLL. That's real funny. But ugh, I hate the shifting back thing. I suck at it. Like Ms Lin said, I'm totally dead if I meet someone like that. I need faster reaction. This SUCKS.
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BLOGS AND UPDATES
I was thinking about my st. nicks life and how I used to think that I was very sensitive then. I kind of miss the st.nicks netballers like Kimberly, Shannon, Yingqi, Jean, Tenna, Angelina, Cathleen and my old classmates. I wonder how all of them are now. But I can hardly ever find out much except from Facebook which is pretty pathetic. It'll be cool if we could all meet each other again...
Then I started reading people's blog...Okay mostly netballers' blog coz classmates' blogs are so dead.
Hoon
I know it's very sad and I agree that if I were in your shoes I would want to play truant too. But then, I think right now it's kind of like a second chance and you can't just give it up and you got to persevere and try to do to your best. I know my mental isn't very good sometimes and in your place, I would probably have loads of negative thoughts too because we are both only human but I think you can treat it like a netball match and we are on par with the opponent and we have to stay strong and keep going till the end so we will emerge victorious. JIAYOU okay! Even if you might not read this I still want to say that you can ask me for help ANYTIME.
Yanquan
I am still ever amazed by your very honest opinions and thoughts you always post almost every day. But I think you are super emo sometimes, especially now that your blogskin is so dark and gloomy. I preferred the old one which is so bright and smiley? I think I'm super grateful that you keep taking pictures for our team and re-posting them so we will keep thinking back on the sec1, sec 2days... It's kind of cool really. But I think you shouldn't post super long entries until I kan4 le4 yan3 hua1. But keep being honest and posting haha. All the photos especially.
Valerie
I don't really get some of your entries coz you don't post much about netball but your birthday and your trips to the shopping mall. The occassional random school comment I get it. Haha.
Qingying
Your blog is another gloomy one. All black jeez. Hah but you like to post about netball. But don't keep posting all your que1dian3 coz you have good points too. Don't worry you aren't inflexible when it comes to defence. You are quite okay...Must relax and go easy on yourself sometimes. Your blog is kinda dead sometimes like mine.
Jiamin
Your posts are also very honest and I'm always very surprised that you say more on your blog than in front of us. It's very weird and I always feel that when I talk to you, I'm not talking to the real you; I got to go read your blog to find out more. By the way, the birthdays thing isn't popularity. It depends whether we are busy then or not. I mean, I didn't get a birthday cake either. Cakes aren't that great anyway. And I think your birthday last year was neglected coz of global classroom. We were all overseas in different parts of China; we can't exactly split ourselves into 2 and celebrate together. And Chen Juan's birthday is near exams perhaps, then we always don't celebrate. We don't celebrate everyone's birthday every year. Oh well, this year we are going to. So fang4xin1 everyone gets their turn.
I can't find Chen Juan's blog so I shan't comment on it. Peishan's blog is dead since august so I'm not going to bother either. I think our team has very little people with blogs. It's so weird.
Okay I shall go do commonwealth essay now. Slacktime over.
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NEGLECTED HAPPENINGS
2009 is here and I regret that I did not post anything about my last week of December which was also the most eventful week. So before I start anything about the new year, I guess I should start on a positive note like all teachers and everyone giving a talk on the 1st or 2nd day of the new year would do and recall the past week.
29-31st Dec- Netball Camp
It was much more tiring than usual, perhaps due to the very tightly packed schedules. By the first night, I was getting muscle aches. But I'm happy we played relatively well in the carnival and had loads of bonding time. I do realise that I tend not to focus sometimes and my vision strays from the ball. Note to self: ALWAYS LOOK AT THE BALL ON COURT. And I found out that my focus is dependent on physical status and stomach conditions. HAHA. But this camp was really great because dear Captain Cheryl is resourceful and got us cheap camp food and Ms Chia was very nice to buy us fries and nutella and look after our every need. And Mrs Tan was so kind to let us sleep in the dance studio (with air con) for the first time ever! This year was the most tiring camp, but also one of the best.
31st Dec- Movie Night
After returning home in a much exhausted state, I updated myself by checking emails and looking up the progress of my uncompleted homework. Then, I played some msn games with Cherynn. I missed UNO and MINESWEEPER FLAGS. After that, I went to Marina Square for Bedtime Stories. Dinner at Han's was great. But I think restaurant/cafe dinners will cut down by an obvious margin this year due to the economic crisis. So all the more I treasured that grilled dory fillet and cream of chicken soup. The movie was quite funny in the sense it was wacky. But what left a deep impression on me was the trailer of Jack Neo's latest film Love Matters. This guy was talking on the phone and bragging about how his English was good because he can use colours in his speech. Here goes what he said:
Green, green. Yellow, blue are you? White you want? I purplely don't know you but if you don't answer, I won't call you black. (there's still a huge section I missed)
Believe me, the whole cinema burst into laughter. If you're daft enough not to know what that is, I suggest go figuring out your typical phone call.
Bedtime Stories had funny elements too. I mean Adam Sandler's face itself is already funny enough to laugh at. I enjoyed it but I wonder why rotten tomatoes gave it such a bad review. I was very tired after the show and went home, did nothing and slept.
1st Jan- New Year's Day
It was more of Chiong-Your-Holiday-Homework-Coz-It's-The-Last-Chance-Day. But I was unproductive and only finished evaluative report. Stoning at the computer for 3 hours while attempting my eoy essay was really quite bad. I gave up in the end and played more msn games with my bro. I'm so brilliant, right?
2nd Jan- School Reopens
It was week 0 so everything wasn't so bad. I got a co-form teacher and seat in the centre of the classroom, albeit it was the usual one at the back. Shihui is monitor, I almost managed to get the power in my hands if I was PE Rep (but Shihui having the upper hand can control Amaris anyway so I couldn't care less), Germaine the all-mighty person who can bug people to do duty is still FM and now has the combined forces of Deborah although she IS dreamy, school still starts late on monday, 50 min slots after 1st recess, school ends earlier on some days, malay only on ONE DAY! And there was also no training today but we completed the 10 rounds we owed, loads of presents from people which I'm going to thank for later, all in all a GREAT day.
Except for Liyi who was crying fakishly that no one celebrated her birthday which is in 2 days and the slow running of programmes because there wasn't much anyway.
Which reminds me again of the list of presents and thanks:
Jody for the funny squishy handphone monster
Sharon for the crazy socks
Katherine for the miniature clay thing which I don't know what to do with
Qing Ying for the candles
Amaris for the stickers which are all about school supplies
Ms Chen for royce chocolate
A mysterious person for a mysterious fluffy keychain thing
And of course, Melissa for printing out my evaluative report and the council info for telematch trial run tomorrow because my printer ran out of ink.
The lectures we attended were quite inspiring about Eric Liddell and this professor who gave his last lecture on Oprah. I guess it's really all about the Human Spirit. When I was running the 10 rounds during training and my right leg was kind of dying, I kept chanting to myself, "The Human Spirit, the human spirit" and it actually worked. Haha.
And I can't believe Cheryl plays facebook games so often. It's weird. Oh well, people have weird obsessions.
As for my uncompleted homework, I only have myself to thank (more like blame) and finish it over saturday and sunday. I'm glad I managed to clean up my room a little but the 2 essays I have yet to finish makes me reluctant to go swimming tomorrow.
This blog will be gobbled up by the Dead Blogs Monster real soon.
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CHINESE NEW YEAR
AHHH XIN NIAN YAO DAO LE! I'm pretty excited but I have ignored my pile of homework in the midst of all the excitement. And I can't get away from this sudden obsession of checking back on st. nicks people. I have no idea why this obsession came this year (which is so long after PRI SCH).....I just kind of miss those people, especially the netballers except I have no idea of how to contact them except perhaps kimberly whom I always wish her happy birthday on her birthday. I know this is pathetic but oh well. I have since then resorted to facebook. I have begun to realise the advantages of such a simple network website. I just have this sudden shock in my head that I have immersed so well into Nanyang life that I never once paused to think about st nicks...which I would say is brilliant yet hehe terrible.
The last match was way better for me. I feel more hope that I at least improved from the last crappy match and stopped acting blur. I want my ankle to recover ASAP! THEN I WILL BE BACK TO NORMAL!
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TOMORROW
Okay on to more positive and less confusing things. I hope we can pick ourselves up and play like we usually do. I know we can do it. And we will go all out all the way. And hopefully, I'll return to my normal self before feb 13. I just realised it's the day after investiture. How wonderful. I seriously hope walking around in heels is not going to affect my condition. Although I have heard terrible things from the physiotherapist already but it's not like I can excuse myself from not wearing court shoes. It would be ridiculous.
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UGH.
I know I shouldn't be rushing myself. But there is this desperate need to rush. I really hated it the last match. I mean it was super disappointing. The shooters obviously needed more opportunities to shoot and the defence couldn't get any mostly because I was slow. My play completely sucked. I knew it before anyone could tell me. Ugh. I'm toooooo sloowwww. TOO SLOW TOO SLOW TOO SLOW! And my ankle isn't getting any better. It's like giving me this irritating pain or I don't know, sore feeling everytime I stop running or something. I hate being slow. I think I'm the kind of person that needs to train continously and not stop for 1.5 weeks. If not, I come back and just screw everything up. Which is why I keep telling myself I need to train like crazy. I know it's rushing but there is this need for it! Our team is a defensive team. It's so obvious from the start and we need to intercept. And it's not helping that I'm slow and lost on court. I don't know what's taking my ankle so long. I can't believe the physiotherapist said it's supposed to take 4-6 weeks and lets me go back for training after 3 weeks because I could jump on the bouncy soft trampoline for long and jump on the hard ground for 5 seconds. And I can't believe that my ankle is really like some torn ligament or don't know what serious ligament thing. I meant, I could already walk properly 2 days after spraining. How can it be that serious? So there must be something wrong with me! With my ankle or healing abilities or my coordination or speed. UGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. And I wish the whole ankle thing can be resolved first in 3 days with some miracle formula but that is impossible although I know that nothing is impossible. It's not logical unless I just rot at home without walking around or something. Taping isn't helping my left ankle either. It's getting the pain too. I don't understand why at all. My ankle just wants to zuo dui with me. Walk- FINE. PE- still FINE (except when I twist or stretch it accidentally somehow which I don't even know how). COURT WORK, LONG SHORT RUNS- NOT FINE. Why can't it just be fine where I need it to be most?! Yeah, I'm told to relax, calm down, don't train. Sometimes, I really really wish I could be a doctor and diagnose myself. Or maybe I wished some relative of mine is a physio cum doctor or a specialised biology professor who is extremely knowledgable about lousy ankles who get sprained. Then maybe I get to know exactly why this is happening and what I can do to speed up the process. I can't keep going to the physio FOREVER. It's going to cost and it's not going to work. I just want to go back and train like crazy and be back to my usual self.
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ONE HUNDRED!
Now after venging my anger, on to happier things.
I CAN TRAIN TOMORROW! I CAN TRAIN TOMORROW! I CAN TRAIN TOMORROW! YESSSSS!
And minor point but still super great to me: MAN U IS CATCHING UP ON LIVERPOOL. YAYY! MAN U GO!
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SOME GENTLEMAN.
This is my 99th post and I'm not posting the good news coz I'm saving it for the big one.
I'M SO FREAKING IRRITATED WITH MY BROTHER. HE IS SO SUCKY! I ASKED HIM TO GIVE OUT 10 SURVEYS (WHICH INCLUDES HIMSELF SO TECHNICALLY IT'S 9) AND HE ONLY MANAGES TO GET ONE AND GIVES ME SOME LAME AND LOUSY EXCUSE THAT HIS FRIENDS DON'T WANT TO DO. I BET HE'S SOME ANTISOCIAL FREAK IN CLASS SO HE ONLY HAS LIKE 1 FRIEND. STUPID GUY. HE DOESN'T EVEN THINK OF WAYS TO GIVE OUT EVERYTHING AND FINISH HIS TASK. WHAT KIND OF LOUSY JOB IS THIS?! AND I GAVE HIM 4 WHOLE DAYS TO DO IT! I GAVE HIM ON MONDAY AND ASKED HIM TO RETURN EVERYTHING BY THURSDAY! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. THAT'S THE SLOGAN OF ADIDAS WHICH IS HIS FAVOURITE BRAND. THAT VAIN GIT WEARS ADIDAS EVERY TIME AND HE CAN'T EVEN APPLY WHAT HIS CLOTHES BRAND IS ADVOCATING IN LIFE. GO TO HELL, CHIN YU HENG. I CAN'T BELIEVE MY TEACHER ACTUALLY SAID SJI GUYS ARE GENTLEMANLY. MAYBE GERMAINE'S BROTHER IS BUT MY BROTHER IS CLEARLY THAT BIG ONE EXCEPTION. HE SUCKS BIG TIME. HE IS THE SABOTAGER OF HIS SCHOOL'S IMAGE. I MEAN HIS RESULTS ALREADY SUCK LIKE CRAP. SINCE PSLE HE HAS NEVER BEATEN ME ONCE. AND HE CAN'T EVEN DO A SIMPLE JOB OF GIVING OUT 9 SURVEYS! AND IT'S NOT LIKE I'M PUTTING HIM IN A SPOT BY GIVING HIM SURVEYS WHICH ARE IN CHINESE. FOR GOD'S SAKE THERE'S ENGLISH TRANSLATION TOO! IT'S SO CONVENIENT. MY BROTHER SUCKS. MY BROTHER SUCKS. MY BROTHER SUCKS. HE IS SO IRRESPONSIBLE AND USELESS. IDIOT. NO WONDER HE ALWAYS SKIPS NPCC. NO AIM IN LIFE. HE SUCKS BIGTIME.
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2 more to 100
I'm amazed at my blogging progress. But I know I have to stop soon. This is still like the midst of honeymoon period for me.
Anyway, physio today was more bearable. I guess I'm a whole lot better now. Really. Except when I twist the back of my ankle then it REALLY hurts. But I'm fine. Lynette's ankle training thing which you stand on one foot is actually kind of true! The physio made me do it today! Only the difficulty was raised- I had to stand on this wobbly disc thing and balance the whole time. AHHH. And you know how clumsy I am, I keep getting off balanced. But I feel so much more optimistic about my progress. The last session he told me I TORE that ligament at my ankle and I was like: TORE?! I thought sprains do not equal tears. Thank god I can recover. I think he just meant sprain. I'm just not sure whether when I get back, I'll be back to normal. I think there will be this yin1ying3 that when I jump, I will land super carefully. But I think looking at round 1's groupings there's no time for me to be all carefully and xiao2jie3 on court. Must work hard like crazy!
Dental was crazily speedy. I think I went in for 2 minutes and came out. HAHAHA. So I managed to go for training. I took a bus back and fell asleep on it until I heard the blasting ipod music from the lady beside me. Takes a lot to wake me up...
Ah I still feel regretful about training. Cannot move and all. Like stand there, look at the ball ( ALWAYS OF COURSE) and react to it. I feel so awkward and stiff in the school uniform looking at everyone jump and move and run... Ah well, I suppose I'll be doing it SOON. I realise how much I dislike being in school uniform. I feel so STIFF! Maybe I got too used to my holey pe shirt and jersey and fbts. Or I just got fatter and my uniform got tighter. Either way.
I can't wait to move again. I hope I haven't lost my already quite slow reaction to the ball. I'm praying hard, keeping my fingers and toes crossed I haven't. Ah, I think I should do some exercise but I dunno what I can do. In my ankle's state, I don't dare to go swim and do freestyle especially. What if I kick like super hard from the wall and aggravate it. I always use brute strength. UGH. I hate to be so careful. Coz it's so hard.
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AGAIN!
I decided to double post because I'm kept awake with this weird throbbing pain at my ankle after icing. It seems to have gotten worse somehow. Weird really. Maybe it's temporary. I just realised Yanquan posted on my blog and seeing how she wants to communicate through blogging, I shall respond for now when I am still free.
Okay, the whole point about me being smart is really stereotypical. Because there are also a whole lot of other areas for me to improve. And life isn't really about getting all the A1s but also understanding the knowledge and really applying it in real life. It probably isn't the case for me now because I always feel like exam is a hurdle you cross and after you cross you heave a sigh of relief which is one that is huge and you probably forget all you have learnt in the process of sighing. Which isn't the point of learning. So I'm not perfect. Thanks for being proud of me though. But I'm not that brilliant really. 一山还有一山高。And you should talk to us more often, maybe go down to court more? I think I'm not the best person to tell you that because for the past 2 years, I haven't been going down to court. And not even this year because I'm so occupied with things and I'm always in this tired mood to go to court. I just want to go to class, stare blankly at the board, think about what I'm going to do for the day and before I know it, the bell rings. So maybe I should go down to court too. Hah. But I always walk and no one is there and will probably be the first person there but I'll just drop dead and fall asleep there which is embarrassing. I hate sitting in the dark anyway. I prefer a brighter place to think hard about the day. Okay, the last few parts I say doesn't really apply to you so never mind. But you can talk to us. Anyway I heard you are going to have training soon so we will probably meet. Okay maybe not but still, we will meet somewhere, somehow, sometime.
Although I do admit your classroom isn't a strategic location.
Oh oh and I don't know why it's the school term and I'm crazy over 2 movies I want to watch right now: 赤壁II and Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea. Ah, the japanese film is by the guy who created Howl's Moving Castle! How can I miss it? And 赤壁II is now the epic battle! OMG I really really want to watch it. But HOW??? No one going to watch with me and no money. My parents sure don't allow... Unless I sneak out myself and say I'm going for some project meeting. But I've never done that before and it's kind of betraying. I doubt I will find it online...
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ROAD TO RECOVERY
I decided to blog about my very eventful and packed day which ultimately revolved round healing my poor ankle.
There was the fun bonding session during PCCG which I couldn't play crocodile coz I couldn't run although I love playing it and the debrief which didn't link up so well coz it was all impromptu. Then, lessons were fine and we had recep comm meeting when I was supposed to be doing recess patrol but it was so rushed anyway. Then, I went for recess patrol, then was late for GM because of it when I was supposed to go for the netball meeting at the heritage centre. See, I can't split myself into two despite the many things I have. How sad. And it's only week 1 and I have so many things clashing. And I realised I'm going to be in charge for CSM (I think). I didn't really get a very good glimpse.
Now to the very eventful physiotherapy session.
This physiotherapist was the very same guy who treated my fractured right arm when I was 5 so whoever laughed at the injury list which I wrote, don't laugh because I feel this weird nostalgia. And he's a crazy golf fanatic which I didn't know when I was 5 but I now know that he's even very PRO with a single handicap. The whole place has golf clubs and golf balls. Quite interesting really. Then came the first thing. He started rotating my ankle and then did this laser thing to relieve my pain (which was rather absent because I could only feel tightness and occasional spurts or how do you describe it). Then there was this gel thing which was supposed to be ultrasound but I couldn't feel a thing. After that I did this strengthening thing for my ankle. Which I have to continue doing for the rest of my life every morning. 3 reps (10 counts each), 2 exercises. And then, I had this being electrocuted thing. It is kind of like acupuncture coz it shoots out electric currents into your ankle which was kind of painful at first, then turn ticklish and became numb for me, but after about 10 minutes, you stop complaining because you get used to it. But I was icing while getting electrocuted and lying down almost the whole time. And I occupied my time by reading newspapers which I think my dad would probably have disapproved of because it's bad for my eyesight but he didn't care then. After that, he tapped my ankle and showed me how to do it. And only then did I finally learn my lesson: Taping ankle works more than wearing ankle brace. And I have to keep strengthening my ankle if not it will just get weaker on its own. How great, so I am officially joining the taping gang. Only this time, I can tape my ankle myself.
I think it's quite okay. The session was 45 minutes and it's 60 dollars. Hah, cheaper than Ms Lin's one. I have quite a few namecards so I can help to do free advertising. HEHEHE.
SOT was okay. Quite a non-participating class. I didn't talk that much either. The teacher's outgoing and stuff but there's homework. Although I suppose it's the work and effort put in that helps me to improve. But I love the style of one-to-one and keeping up to date with everyone. It's great. Hate the transport and timing though. I wanted to drop dead and sleep the minute I got home but I have to bathe and ice my ankle and all. How nice. Which explains why I'm still up at 11.22pm. GREAT.
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SORRY!
Ah I'm so sorry for the outburst. I'm too frank sometimes or I can't just control myself. I admit I do get too emotional sometimes. I'm fine now too. I realise I'm someone who forgets things easily. I shall just concentrate on trying to recover now. Actually I thought that this sprain wouldn't be as bad as the sec 2 one. But after I got a lift home, I realised I can't really walk much; more like at a snail's pace. And now I'm going to be even slower than my mom at walking. This sucks because she's going to get revenge for all my teasing at her. And I hope my dad will not give me the safety first talk again. And how I was obviously being unsafe again. I do not want to go for 推拿 because I will really freak out and break down a second time if I go for that. Maybe I should go for physio but right now I'm praying I can survive without going to any doctor. And my house, no room, isn't the ideal environment for nursing a bad ankle. I now realise I like keeping hazards around me. Hopefully, I can find a space to ice my ankle properly and do my homework later at the same time. And I can find a way to go to school without my dad turning in if not my brother will take the chance to complain about me. I hope there's no math period tomorrow so I won't need to climb up 4 levels. Most of all, I hope I can recover in 3 days.
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NETBALL
I realised I'm at my 94th post. This is the first time I'm going so far with a blog. I remembered the last few times I deleted it and restarted again. Now I know even if it's kept dead, just keep it for the memories.
Yesterday was a great day of cca selections. Somehow, the standard drops further every year. But oh well, as Mrs Tan put it at camp, every generation has their own strengths and weaknesses. But I think this batch is more promising with more ex-netballers and it seems like quite a few of them are willing to join. I hope nanyang netball will be stronger than ever after our batch graduates. I have faith that somehow they will make it.
Brownie baking was exhausting. Because we kept failing and silly Peishan was getting me to crack an egg. Jeez. But I love eating brownies except that I will get fat after too much. I hope the sec ones can appreciate the brownies because it's such hard work. And I pray hard and hope that Peishan and Nicolette's second session of brownie baking today went well and successful. I think it should though, since there will be Peishan's mom and Nicolette's maid who are both PROs. I think overall it was great CSS fun. I'm really sorry for messing up the kitchen too. But Peishan totally sucks more. She drips mix on the tray and flicked drops of them mix on my UNIFORM!
Today was tiring because of telematch. I'm sorry that I couldn't really shout much and stuff because I had to save my voice for training but apparently I ended up not using much of it. Battleship wasn't that fun but the logistics/manpower are seriously way lesser. I guess everybody enjoys a little bit of action. But moving those benches and tables back seriously is a LOT of work. Hope the sec ones really enjoyed it though and will remember it.
Training wasn't super exhausting. At least I wasn't dead after it although I was so tired I kind of dozed off in chem and chinese. But I'm going to make up for the lack of sleep later in 1 hours' time. We ROCK AND ROLL. That's real funny. But ugh, I hate the shifting back thing. I suck at it. Like Ms Lin said, I'm totally dead if I meet someone like that. I need faster reaction. This SUCKS.
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BLOGS AND UPDATES
I was thinking about my st. nicks life and how I used to think that I was very sensitive then. I kind of miss the st.nicks netballers like Kimberly, Shannon, Yingqi, Jean, Tenna, Angelina, Cathleen and my old classmates. I wonder how all of them are now. But I can hardly ever find out much except from Facebook which is pretty pathetic. It'll be cool if we could all meet each other again...
Then I started reading people's blog...Okay mostly netballers' blog coz classmates' blogs are so dead.
Hoon
I know it's very sad and I agree that if I were in your shoes I would want to play truant too. But then, I think right now it's kind of like a second chance and you can't just give it up and you got to persevere and try to do to your best. I know my mental isn't very good sometimes and in your place, I would probably have loads of negative thoughts too because we are both only human but I think you can treat it like a netball match and we are on par with the opponent and we have to stay strong and keep going till the end so we will emerge victorious. JIAYOU okay! Even if you might not read this I still want to say that you can ask me for help ANYTIME.
Yanquan
I am still ever amazed by your very honest opinions and thoughts you always post almost every day. But I think you are super emo sometimes, especially now that your blogskin is so dark and gloomy. I preferred the old one which is so bright and smiley? I think I'm super grateful that you keep taking pictures for our team and re-posting them so we will keep thinking back on the sec1, sec 2days... It's kind of cool really. But I think you shouldn't post super long entries until I kan4 le4 yan3 hua1. But keep being honest and posting haha. All the photos especially.
Valerie
I don't really get some of your entries coz you don't post much about netball but your birthday and your trips to the shopping mall. The occassional random school comment I get it. Haha.
Qingying
Your blog is another gloomy one. All black jeez. Hah but you like to post about netball. But don't keep posting all your que1dian3 coz you have good points too. Don't worry you aren't inflexible when it comes to defence. You are quite okay...Must relax and go easy on yourself sometimes. Your blog is kinda dead sometimes like mine.
Jiamin
Your posts are also very honest and I'm always very surprised that you say more on your blog than in front of us. It's very weird and I always feel that when I talk to you, I'm not talking to the real you; I got to go read your blog to find out more. By the way, the birthdays thing isn't popularity. It depends whether we are busy then or not. I mean, I didn't get a birthday cake either. Cakes aren't that great anyway. And I think your birthday last year was neglected coz of global classroom. We were all overseas in different parts of China; we can't exactly split ourselves into 2 and celebrate together. And Chen Juan's birthday is near exams perhaps, then we always don't celebrate. We don't celebrate everyone's birthday every year. Oh well, this year we are going to. So fang4xin1 everyone gets their turn.
I can't find Chen Juan's blog so I shan't comment on it. Peishan's blog is dead since august so I'm not going to bother either. I think our team has very little people with blogs. It's so weird.
Okay I shall go do commonwealth essay now. Slacktime over.
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NEGLECTED HAPPENINGS
2009 is here and I regret that I did not post anything about my last week of December which was also the most eventful week. So before I start anything about the new year, I guess I should start on a positive note like all teachers and everyone giving a talk on the 1st or 2nd day of the new year would do and recall the past week.
29-31st Dec- Netball Camp
It was much more tiring than usual, perhaps due to the very tightly packed schedules. By the first night, I was getting muscle aches. But I'm happy we played relatively well in the carnival and had loads of bonding time. I do realise that I tend not to focus sometimes and my vision strays from the ball. Note to self: ALWAYS LOOK AT THE BALL ON COURT. And I found out that my focus is dependent on physical status and stomach conditions. HAHA. But this camp was really great because dear Captain Cheryl is resourceful and got us cheap camp food and Ms Chia was very nice to buy us fries and nutella and look after our every need. And Mrs Tan was so kind to let us sleep in the dance studio (with air con) for the first time ever! This year was the most tiring camp, but also one of the best.
31st Dec- Movie Night
After returning home in a much exhausted state, I updated myself by checking emails and looking up the progress of my uncompleted homework. Then, I played some msn games with Cherynn. I missed UNO and MINESWEEPER FLAGS. After that, I went to Marina Square for Bedtime Stories. Dinner at Han's was great. But I think restaurant/cafe dinners will cut down by an obvious margin this year due to the economic crisis. So all the more I treasured that grilled dory fillet and cream of chicken soup. The movie was quite funny in the sense it was wacky. But what left a deep impression on me was the trailer of Jack Neo's latest film Love Matters. This guy was talking on the phone and bragging about how his English was good because he can use colours in his speech. Here goes what he said:
Green, green. Yellow, blue are you? White you want? I purplely don't know you but if you don't answer, I won't call you black. (there's still a huge section I missed)
Believe me, the whole cinema burst into laughter. If you're daft enough not to know what that is, I suggest go figuring out your typical phone call.
Bedtime Stories had funny elements too. I mean Adam Sandler's face itself is already funny enough to laugh at. I enjoyed it but I wonder why rotten tomatoes gave it such a bad review. I was very tired after the show and went home, did nothing and slept.
1st Jan- New Year's Day
It was more of Chiong-Your-Holiday-Homework-Coz-It's-The-Last-Chance-Day. But I was unproductive and only finished evaluative report. Stoning at the computer for 3 hours while attempting my eoy essay was really quite bad. I gave up in the end and played more msn games with my bro. I'm so brilliant, right?
2nd Jan- School Reopens
It was week 0 so everything wasn't so bad. I got a co-form teacher and seat in the centre of the classroom, albeit it was the usual one at the back. Shihui is monitor, I almost managed to get the power in my hands if I was PE Rep (but Shihui having the upper hand can control Amaris anyway so I couldn't care less), Germaine the all-mighty person who can bug people to do duty is still FM and now has the combined forces of Deborah although she IS dreamy, school still starts late on monday, 50 min slots after 1st recess, school ends earlier on some days, malay only on ONE DAY! And there was also no training today but we completed the 10 rounds we owed, loads of presents from people which I'm going to thank for later, all in all a GREAT day.
Except for Liyi who was crying fakishly that no one celebrated her birthday which is in 2 days and the slow running of programmes because there wasn't much anyway.
Which reminds me again of the list of presents and thanks:
Jody for the funny squishy handphone monster
Sharon for the crazy socks
Katherine for the miniature clay thing which I don't know what to do with
Qing Ying for the candles
Amaris for the stickers which are all about school supplies
Ms Chen for royce chocolate
A mysterious person for a mysterious fluffy keychain thing
And of course, Melissa for printing out my evaluative report and the council info for telematch trial run tomorrow because my printer ran out of ink.
The lectures we attended were quite inspiring about Eric Liddell and this professor who gave his last lecture on Oprah. I guess it's really all about the Human Spirit. When I was running the 10 rounds during training and my right leg was kind of dying, I kept chanting to myself, "The Human Spirit, the human spirit" and it actually worked. Haha.
And I can't believe Cheryl plays facebook games so often. It's weird. Oh well, people have weird obsessions.
As for my uncompleted homework, I only have myself to thank (more like blame) and finish it over saturday and sunday. I'm glad I managed to clean up my room a little but the 2 essays I have yet to finish makes me reluctant to go swimming tomorrow.
This blog will be gobbled up by the Dead Blogs Monster real soon.
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I'm Yu Xuan and fifteen this year. This means I'm sadly not entitled to many things. My life is under control currently (thanks to my very practical and sensible parents). I may appear sensible to you but you must never judge a book by its cover.
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