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RECORD BREAKING!

When you see the balloons that are given out tomorrow during CSM, you will know they are the result of hard work by CSS councillors who pumped and drew on them till 8.15pm. Hah, that was a record breaker for me. I've never stayed till so late for a school activity before. It's quite a new experience.

CSM tomorrow is going to be FUN! I should get enough rest though. I don't even understand why I'm posting here. Maybe I'm just too excited that I can't stop that bursting feeling so I need to let it out somewhere.

However, my mood is a little down despite these happy events. I never knew that one day, I would be one of those people who had families all over the world. I really can't imagine my cousins and grandparents migrating to china for 3 years. This is going to be such a turning point in my life. They will no longer be here. Sigh. I truly understand why they say absence makes the heart grow fonder and you never really appreciate something till its gone.

Nevertheless, I shall focus on council stuff and homework first. GOGOGO!

Time Flies

My life feels like a speeding car. Somehow, due to the numerous tasks waiting for me to complete, I am constantly doing something and time simply whooshes past me. Nevertheless, my life feels more meaningful. But I really do yearn for a long good break. I hate having to meet tons of deadlines.

I can't wait for Breaking Dawn to be released. I will have to wait 3 more months (may's coming soon). I have endured 4 already. I'm really wondering if I should buy The Host. I don't know I'm the kind who likes science fiction though.

I'm getting random because I'm trying to destress. I'm getting fat from BINGEING. I wish I can stop eating too much. The Ben&Jerry's at home is already disappearing at top speed. I bet a large portion was finished by my mom. Haish, it's so rarely now that I get ice-cream. I hope it lasts.

The Power of Influence

I realised that I get easily influenced by friends. After reading Zexin's blog which is frequently updated, I get tempted to update so here I am.

I ran 2.4km today. I don't know why but this year's run was somehow a different experience for me. I suppose it is because I run directly after my break from seasons so it made me pretty nervous at the beginning. Whenever I am nervous fitness issues while doing the activity, there is this weird sinking feeling in my stomach and I only got it during this year's run. But I am very glad that I managed to regain my confidence and just tell myself to KEEP RUNNING.

I am so glad NAPFA is over. CSM is coming. When CSM is over, it means MOTHERS' DAY is going to be over. When MOTHERS' DAY is over, it means I am only left with one project. I still have a pile of things to do now. Sometimes I really wish that I was a vampire like Edward Cullen so I don't need sleep. Of course, I wouldn't waste precious time climbing into someone else's house but spending the time wisely on completing my seemingly never-ending tasks.

BACK ON TRACK

I realised that I haven't been making full use of my blog. I have not posted in ages so I shall just do a quick one.

Nowadays I'm still so busy. It's really a pity that I can't relax after seasons but I'm extremely grateful for the 2 week break from trainings. It gives me time to work on council stuff so that I will not be stretched to the ends.

We had team dinner today and I helped out a little during training. Looking at the juniors (sec 2s; or should I call them my teammates?), I realise how important foundations and basics are. Having undergone an entire season without a proper coach, they really do have much to catch up on and we are not exactly giving great help as we are not qualified coaches. I know I'm sounding extremely paranoid but we really need a coach.

I'm very sorry that I didn't go for blaze tonight. It's just that I feel so off-form after the 2 week break. I can't just start playing a friendly all of a sudden. I know my body won't be able to take it and I'm not ready to perform so badly (I know one of my weakest points is being afraid to do badly or something wrong). I feel a little guilty that Jocelyn, Claudia and Cheryl did not go either because I did not want to go. I WILL go next training. Really I will.

I also know that missing the trials tomorrow is going to be one of the greatest regrets in my life but I believe that what I'm doing is right. I will be responsible for my own decisions. I have begun to find joy in whatever I'm doing. Amidst all the tight schedules and numerous events, I have learnt to enjoy my hectic life:D