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TEACHERS' DAY!
It was teachers' day today and I must say that even though I'm not a teacher, I enjoyed it tremendously. NY makes every year's teachers' day not only special for teachers, but students AND parents. I think this makes everyone in the NY family feel welcome.
In the morning, Dileen and I had to promote the SEADC thing and I thought that it would just be fine and simple. However, it turned out quite the opposite. I found out that my speaking skills have great room for improvement and I was so nervous talking in front of the whole school! I guess I was a bit too nervous that I read one word wrongly...HAHA.
Then we had the CLASS PARTY! I ate a lot and Shaoting's brownies are simply FANTASTIC! I liked the hash browns Zexin brought too and Shuting's onion rings and nuggets were just as delicious. Hehe I ate so much that I became bloated.
After the class party, we watched the teachers' day concert! It was sooo fun! I really liked 409's performance it was super funny. As for Evelyn's class, I must say the PCK in her class is quite realistic and convincing! The teachers performance were SUPER FUNNY TOO! I enjoyed it a lot AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! THIS year's concert is WAYYYYYYYYYY better than LAST YEAR'S!
Then went to AMK Hub to meet Kimberly and Samantha. We watched Bourne Ultimatum and it was quite a nice action-packed movie though I kind of dozed off a little bit when Noah Vosen was given commands to the rest of the CIA officials but I love the ACTION! Haha! I'm really tempted to read the book now and so I'm sort of searching online ALL ABOUT IT. Then we went to J8 because we were feeling bored and we ended up at the library instead. HAHAHA. I still think Kimberly reads avidly and I'm still awed by it even though it's been years I know about this. Haha.
I've also been thinking lately...is it because of my practicality that I quit pursuing my own interests? Or is it because I'm so fickle-minded that I am unable to identify dreams that I have and just ignore them? I don't even know whether they are dreams or not and I don't know if I have the perseverance. SIGH.
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The Girl Who Leapt Through Time
I love this movie, The Girl Who Leapt Through Time! (i shall not put too many exclamation marks because someone told me it's a grammatical error to put more than one) It's such a WONDERFUL movie; I'm impressed with the way the director makes a mirroring role of makoto, which is her future self, and chiaki is such a nice person. Makoto is honestly very hilarious though she goes through a stage of development during the movie. I honestly think her time leaping style is very funny! The portrayal of makoto is rather well done because she is easy to relate to. She may have a super ability of being able to leap through time but she has human flaws too. THIS MOVIE IS GREAT! I recommend it to everyone!
So the day was great today because of this movie but there's one really irritating issue that just ruined my day. I can totally empathise with hoon now why she always complains about her mother. I mean I get it that humans have flaws and make mistakes too but my mom? Whatever she does is totally contradicting to what she's telling everyone to do. I'm darn irritated by her. What the heck...Whatever I'm just going to ignore, ignore and ignore. I'll just go about my own business. I know I need to be EDUCATED but I don't need to be morally educated by her. As if she is THAT well morally educated. It's all a vicious cycle; whatever she did to her own mother, I'm doing to her. She keeps saying that my children will do the same thing to me...so isn't her children doing the same thing to her? HAH.
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TRAINING
Today, we got back our compo timed trial. I realised I'm seriously deproving by writing "mundane and straighforward" stuff. I'm lacking PRACTISE and EXPOSURE. I don't know why I can't think of creative plots like before...it's like my mind goes blank and I can't think of anything with a twist to write.
I need to save myself. OURSELVES, more specifically, the whole class needs to save themselves. What Dileen says, I whole-heartedly agree. And I just want her to know that I'm not competing with her. I just want to maintain a good academics record.
Training was quite fun today. It wasn't as tiring as I had expected but I must say the hopping-with-leg-in-the-air thing was really quite testing for our muscles...But I can tell you it must have strengthened my ankle by at least 2 times. I need to strengthen my ankles. I no longer want to wear ankle braces and get a 'scary tan line' as Shirlynn says.
I went home and surprisingly saw dad at home. I thought I would have to sucuumb to a pitiful dinner but yay, at least we went to the food court. I saw this whole row of new shops behind. They are really great! Wished I could eat out there with friends after end of year examinations. I realise that my social skills are getting worse. I need to stop cooping myself behind books or the computer. They make me inhumane.
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CHANGE BLOGSKIN AGAIN!
Hehe I changed blogskin again! I realised that I'm a xi xin yan jiu person...I get sick of blogskins just for a span of er...3 days?! Haha!
I chose this one coz I suddenly feel that food is such a hot topic these days. I mean for individual speech, SOOOOO MANY people used food as a topic (me included:D)! And a lot of people are resisting food (like me sometimes:D) coz they want to JIAN FEI! HAHAHA. So all the yummy food there is to tempt you... Also, after having witnessed peishan's cravings for chocolate (which is ALSO a type of food), I decided that I would not need to look for pictures of food to put in as posts to cheer my blog up....coz YEPP!!! There's already food on it! Yay, this is such a meaningful skin. HAHAHAH FOOD SKINS ARE FUNNNN.
Well, actually I don't understand why there's a shoe on the plate but don't be fooled by it and think it's food ok... (im being lame) It's MOSTLY food...the shoe looks ok but I definitely won't be able to fit in it and I doubt you would ever catch me wearing something like that. AHAHHAHA.
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LITERATURE AND ASSEMBLY
Hehe I'm updating again. KEEP IT UP YUXUAN! Haha, I'm talking to myself. Today was a rather peaceful day. We had the assembly talk on our subject combinations and I don't know why I just keep thinking I should take triple science and BSP. I know that deep down I am just not sure of what to choose; what future I should have. Maybe I'm just saying that I'm going to take triple science and BSP to reassure myself that I've already made a choice and I'm perfectly clear-headed about which path I want to take in my next life.
Haish, I don't know. Maybe I'm just in a dilemma because I've never even thought about my interests. I seriously think that I'm someone with little spiritual developments (is that how you call it?) because I realised I've been studying for the sake of results and just studying to gain knowledge and be smarter. I haven't been thinking about studying to fulfil my career aspiration in the near future. I guess I'm just short-sighted.
Then I had literature class. I'm always feeling scared and insecure about it, mostly because I'm afraid of making mistakes (there, I confessed it). I know that my literature is totally not good at all, so I'm afraid of making mistakes and the more I make, the more I think that I'm bad at it and that I totally hate it. But I really feel more accomplished now that I am finally able to turn in a decent piece of assignment. I shall strive to improve harder because I realise that one cannot live without literature. Literature deals with the feelings of human nature; if I'm just a science student, caring only about facts, I will really become so unfeeling like Thomas Gradgrind. I don't want to be a robot or a block of living corpse. I want to be human.
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DENTAL
Today was a rather pleasant day besides the council meeting where I got a little freaked out.
Mostly, our lessons were quite relaxing: Language arts we listened to speeches; Dance we had this exchange student from Tasmania (Rosie- is this how you spell it?) ; Math with the Rosie again and we just continued with standard forms (a topic which I realised I am rather careless in); Science we continued with inheritance (a topic that I realised was way too confusing because of the minuscule sizes of the specimens we are studying- chromosomes, DNA, genes and alleles); drama (teacher not in but we were all obedient and responsible students so we rehearsed our item) and contact time was just the usual stuff.
Ok, here's the thing. I totally didn't know that there was council meeting today. I only realised in the morning so I thought ok maybe it's just the usual stuff. I didn't expect this attire check thing...only that I had this really bad feeling the moment all of us sat down and the councillors started coming in. HAHA I realise gut feelings are sometimes really very helpful, only thing is if you ignore it er....
So we had this attire check thing. SIGH as usual my socks too low. I seriously got to stop wearing that pair of adidas shoes because the top is too high; the converse one is WAYYYY lower. I shall from now onwards, wear stuff that is advantageous for me. And just my luck, I wore a pair of socks that was either: a) too new and couldn't be stretched OR b) shrank somehow in my mom's REAALLLL GOOODDDD washing machine. So now onwards I got to be more conscious about my attire and stuff.
For dental appointment, the dentist was nice and decided to take pity on me so he sort of did something to the chain links or something and made it more suitable for my tolerance towards pain. HAHA. And I'm really feeling very bad for missing the ENTIRE training. SIGH. I know it was impossible to reach there like 1 hour before training ends ( I seriously am not even sure whether it ends at 6 or 5.30 nowadays). But I only reached home at around 5.30 coz of the waiting and travelling time. SIGH. I don't want to miss training. Now I just got to hope my fitness can be maintained. And I suppose that can only be solved if I'm disciplined enough to go train my endurance this weekend.
a million apologies for missing training.
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UPDATES!
I'm soooo tempted to blog again! Haha a nice blogskin motivates and tempts you to blog more often! DOUBLE POST TODAY!
Ok I realised I have been using exclamation marks for my introductory paragraph so I guess I'm a little too enthusiastic/hyper...must curb my feelings a little...
I've been thinking a lot nowadays...especially now when I'm suddenly feeling so free. I know this period of relaxation is not natural and somehow even when I relax I feel uneasy (although this uneasiness sort of fades away when I get too carried away with my leisure activities). It's like I started playing audition recently...and it's just so NOT ME to play a game? Furthermore, now I even get addicted to the game?! I know this is totally NOT good for my studies but I just cannot control myself.
It's like I kind of lost some of the energy and strength I used to have in the past...the motivation and drive to push on and actually DO something to make my studies improve. It's like last time, I used to have both DRIVE AND EXPECTATIONS to push me on. Now it's just expectations and expectations alone aren't enough to fuel whatever I'm supposed to do. Argh and all these problems just has to come at such a BADDD timing like this when I'm supposed to choose subject combinations this year? I want to do well...I mean it's not just ME that I'm setting high expectations of myself.
I know everyone knows and just shakes their heads and sigh at me because I'm always talking about my expectations, complaining about my results because they don't reach my expectations. SOOO MANY people believe that I'm the one that is totally behind all this. I'm the one who wants to set high expectations for myself just because I WANT TO DO IT. But no one has ever thought about whether I set these expectations because I REALLY want to do it?
Well, to get things clear, a lot of times, it's not because I really want to do it. I do not deny that I want these expectations because I know I can only improve if I have higher expectations. But factors like teachers and parents play a part too. I mean has anyone even thought about this: If I do not set high expectations for myself, end of this year I get really lousy grades, all the teachers who already set high expectations for me start shaking their heads and go, "Wah, 3rd in level last year deprove so much?" I mean who wants that to happen to them? Now people might say again, "Who ask you to do so well in the first place then get yourself all the pressure?" But who in this world DOESN'T want to do well? Wanting to be first, to come out tops, to emerge as the winner is something natural. All human beings HAVE this urge.
So sometimes it's not really me that's like that. Not because I want to do it. It's because I have to do it. I just feel like I'm suffocating already.
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WHOOPEE!
Yay I was soooo happy today! Finally, at LONGGG LASTTT, I finished the individual speech. OH MY GOSH you know I spent like dunno HOWWW MANNNYYYYY HOURRRSSS on that script?!!!! I had to like read it nearly 8 times to get my timing right and i had to keep cutting down just because I overshot the time limit so some of the content had to go. But I'm so glad that I did my speech quite okay-ly (this word doesn't exist)...only my posture has a problem. Thank goodness I could still be heard even when I was having kind of a sore throat!!!
We had SPA assessment today...and I'm not sure if I did it well...because I was totally blanked out at the questions part but the rest I could do it. Then we got back our history papers. SIGH. Only 14 out of 16 and people like zexin and althea can get 15 and tongzhen got FULL MARKS! I wonder is it because our new teacher marks more leniently? Or was it that our previous teacher marked too strictly? I really wonder...
Then we went to see our chinese teacher and I asked about which elective I'm most suitable for...hmm I guess teachers and parents say about the same thing...I'M SUITED FOR BSP! I shall set my mind on it then...and triple science is definitely what I want to do. Because I don't see the point in taking a humanities subject when I can take IH which has humanities in it. Anyway, I think I should be more suited for science as both my parents were science students? I really really hope my end-of-year examinations results can pull up my average grade...I DON'T WANT TO GET LIKE 79% average or something if its 80% its BEST. I just feel like maintaining now because I know I didn't do well at all. I need to do well; I WANT TO GO TO JAPAN FOR HOLIDAY! BAD RESULTS NO HOLIDAY AHHHHHH!
As you can see, I've changed my blogskin again...its PEISHAN's old one:) I think its quite nice as a blogskin :)) Ok I shall stop here.
P.S. Peishan I UPDATED! Hah no more complaints from you now.
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A NICE NEW DAY!
Hello im back again on blogger after SOOOOO LONG! So rare to see me, eh? I think today was a day worth posting and uh, I was just kind of in the mood so I decided to post:)
90TH ANNIVERSARY CLOSING CEREMONY
We had the 90th anniversary closing ceremony in the morning and it was SOOOOO nice! I enjoyed watching the performances it was rather entertaining, especially since our class got a GREAT seat which was somewhere near the centre so we got a spectacular view! The performers really put in a lot of hard work- I can tell totally- and I must say that their facial expressions were really convincing! SO COOL! However, the only not-so-cool factor was the part when we were all squashed up together like a pack of sardines in the hall...so it was REALLLY warm but I guess the temperature went down a little because of the downpour outside. We were ALMOST going to have an early recess but sadly, sadly, the teachers decided against it because the canteen vendors have not finished preparing enough food for the entire student population:(
LESSONS
Hence, we trooped back in disappointment to the classroom...One comforting thought was that we missed 1/2 hour of math lesson although I don't actually see the point of how it is good that we miss math since it isn't so weary for me...we had math quiz and alicia and almost half of the class begged mr chiang for 1/2 hr to do revision. LOL! By that time, lesson would have ended! But we ended up compromising on 10mins:D I'm neutral about that.
Language arts was next and I was having mixed feelings about getting back our scripts and all...but it turned out we had to go through the tips for individual talk first...but we still got back our comprehension at least....*SOBS* I did so badly..didn't even get A1 if I converted it to percentage....SIGH. But I must say my summary really really saved me.
Dance was ok only that the 20 ti tui thing can die...my thighs are seriously aching...and my back hurt a little haha (just a little coz i didn't xia yao all the way:D)
GM
I thought GM was going to be really really creepy but it turned out ok I guess. The councillors were all talking about the different events which had just happened and giving updates to everyone...but I didn't know whether I was supposed to take notes or not so decided against it. One councillor went over the rules...wow so now i get a clearer picture of things. And I've got a buddy to check my attire and behaviour and all. WOW. Council equals great responsibility. REALLY GREAT responsibility. And the whole ducks race thing was super funny: "If you want a duck please sms me by 7.30/7.00 tonight) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
ASEAN SCHOOLS GAME!
We watched the game today! The opening ceremony had some primary school rope skippers who were really really pro! They made skipping look so easy and effortless! GOSH! I was quite impressed. Then Singapore Combined Schs 19s played against Brunei's team and they won! 100-7! WOAH! ONE HUNDRED GOALS!!!!!!!!The whole hall was so tensed up while waiting for our team to put in the hundredth goal! WELL DONE! It's sooooo amazing...100 goals! SO COOL! Then again, they really played superbly! Must take note of how I should defend better. Then can IMPROVE! HAHA. Just like that pro GD. From this game I realised I could have improved a lot more on outside interceptions because there are just so many opportunities to intercept balls out there!
Be Strong, Geum Soon
Sigh, today was the last episode...I just finished watching it and I'm so happy for Jinshun (Geum Soon) even if she's a fictional character...she's such a kind-hearted person man! I shall try and emulate her since she's so nice coz good deeds always come back to you when you do a good deed. Haha! Doubt my plan will work though. But its a nice drama. KOREAN DRAMAS ARE ALWAYS NICE! Sad, now there's no more korean dramas. I'm still waiting for goong/princess hours 2 to come back out. CAN'T WAIT!
There you go, a nice detailed post of one nice day in my life. Only now its back to the unnice part- INDIVIDUAL TALK. So anticlimax...*tsk tsk*
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Blaze
had friendly match for blaze...before that we met claudia and jocelyn for dinner at ps n then it was realllll early. i couldn't eat much but i still managed to finish that bowl of korean ramen...then we walked around a bit coz claudia wanted to buy this candy dispenser thing and we went to this shop that they called sick shop which i dunno why and then went to muee then went action city...and jocelyn bought her tofuman which is green...haha jiinn has the yellow one.
then went there and played against these australian girls..one of them was real tall! and they are all so skinny its scaryyyyy. we won by 1 so cool right! but i played badly sighhhhhhhhh. nvr go get those floaty balls outside...i seriously think i became super rusty and i didn't offer much at the CORRECT timing...as usual. sigh muz go train on stamina and it should help me from gaining more weight since im getting FATTTTT. i went home myself ( WHAT AN ACHIEVEMENT) coz my dad didn't have his car (went for servicing) and then when he did get it back i juz got fed up and decided to go home myself. but he picked me up from the station anyway coz my legs were dying...
i slept soo fast on the sofa after i bathed but i didn't go to bed coz my hair still wet...when i really couldn't take it i juz went to bed. it was so tiring! all coz i slept at 1 and woke up at 7 and then after blaze slept at 11. major lack of sleep.
TODAY
didn't go swimming since my mom said no and then i did a bit of vocabulary...played audition(since belinda introduced it to me i juz started playing and i think im addicted). bad bad bad me. get addicted liao. but i shall try to still balance my time. haha im juz not happy with the lagginess of my comp and my reaction really too slow lah. got to improve on that.
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Cross Country & Netball Outing
Ok, i know its kind of late if i only post now but still better late than NEVER:] we had cross country on tuesday and i seriously could have died running that...my fitness has been on the LOW again! but im so glad that i improved from last yr's 19th place to 14th! and hoon is pro as usual! 2nd!! after that had netball outing... we went to shihui's hse to watch movie after we went to j8 for lunch. our lunch was a bit of a mess...
first we could not take 156 to j8 so we had to take 157 to macritchie to change the bus. but then 157 one of them ignored us and drove off! AHHHH so we had to wait for the next one and when we boarded and alighted at macritchie to take 156, 156 was full! so there went our dear 156. so we had to take 52 to j8 which went around in a big circle first before we finally reached...
then when we reached, yanquan, me and valerie wanted to go change our shirts. so we went to the toilet while the rest waited for us outside kfc and then i thought yanquan was waiting for me outside the toilet so when i realised she wasn't there, i walked out and got a bit lost hehe. then when i came out, she was interviewed by this group of guys and i was a bit still lost...then i found out they were interviewing her about her opinions on eliticism then i had a go since the rest pushed me and THEN we decided to go for lunch...we were all hesitant to go to which places so we broke up and were super fickle-minded before we finally settled down into our RESPECTIVE venues:
yoshinoya:me cheryl evelyn hoon valerie
food court: jiamin chenjuan peishan zhengliang shihui liyi cherynn
subway: yanquan qingying
when we finished we had a tough time meeting AGAIN since we had to keep waiting for each other while the food court ppl went to buy yanquan's present n yoshinoya n subway people went to buy titbits and then there was a bit of a confusion about the titbits coz the food court people thought we hadn't bought and were going to buy so we had to tell them not to buy and come back but then they went shopping somewhere else and then cherynn had to buy bread coz she had sore throat and couldnt eat the titbits.
so at shihui's hse we watched movies...as usual had a tough time deciding which movie to watch. i realised indecisiveness is present in large groups. VERY MUCH PRESENT. so we finally decided on ella enchanted coz bloodrayne(yanquan's suggestion) was too gory kind of and we were already complaining when it hadn't started. then we watched a bit of lizzie mcguire and i kind of briefly explained the parts to peishan zhengliang and cherynn coz we skipped all the in front parts so i juz filled them in:D
then i had to leave for tuition and after that i sprained/shocked my ankle on this stupid curb. SO DUMB RIGHT?! now it swelled up. argh im soooooooo clumsy. thank god its not so pain now.
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SLACK DAY!
Today was the 2nd day after sabbatical week...generally the holiday mood was not gone yet but i must say that today was one of the most holiday-like moods EVER in the school terms i've experienced before. You see, with the exception of the Romeo and Juliet Literature Test which we had during the first period in the morning, the rest of the day was fun and SLACK! SLACK in the sense that there was no lessons which required sitting in a classroom and taking notes and listening to the teacher talk...basically the rest of the periods after the test were based on outside our classroom!
After language arts(test)was DANCE. I got quite surprised because the teacher suddenly told us to lie down and relax and can even shut your eyes and relax. GOSH i thought dance was always ti tui and then muz stretch a lot, then your thighs there ACHE a LOT! However, my predictions are always right because after the few minutes of lying down and getting to shut your eyes and relax, we reverted back to the old routine...only i guess it wasn't as bad...but ti tui got worse coz we had to do 8-4-2-1 and then we were all perspiring after that. I agree with what the teacher says though, perspiration helps you to let everything go so you can regain your focus again:)
After dance and recess was MATH! We continued watching night at the museum...in the TABLET PC LAB! so we got to use the tablet pc yay! the movie is quite funny but lame kind of funny...HAHAHA. that Hun guy is really quite hilarious! and it was so unexpected that those 3 old men turned out EVIL! i was kind of shocked that old people like them did not put that wisdom and experiences to good use but to SINISTER SCHEMES! HAIYO, what a BAD example.
After math was science and it was lab lesson. we had to extract the dna and my dna was at first quite ok (i didn't break it up) but then i guess when i put it down on the black paper i anyhow put and it got broken up. sigh, i guess im just not wen rou enough but its kind of NATURAL. i can't control my STRENGTH!
After science and lunch was DRAMA and i thought we were just going to run through the skit or something...but it turned out that the teacher wasn't present! muz have been involved in the 90th anniversary thing so we had more time to relax! And for class contact time, we went to the hall to learn the 90th anniversary song.
For training, it was the usual but i got called for some funny jumping thing...i think there's some problem with my jumping...muz be coz i arch my back too much and reduce my maximum height...i need to keep that in mind. and we got new captain and vice-captain! sigh how come jocelyn cannot remain? i suppose its logical that she has to leave some responsibilites to others if not she will explode so vernice is captain and claudia is vice now! haha im so glad i nominated claudia as canidate:) if not she wouldn't have been vice cap...looks like TRAININGS are going to be interesting with this new change:D JIAYOU TO VERNICE AND CLAUDIA!
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6 of 28!
we got in, we got in, we got in!all 6 of us yay! i dunno why but im suddenly feeling so proud and happy for all of us and all the 28 people! but i also want wonder how the rest feel and wished they could cheer up and won't be upset. im still kind of in a state of SHOCK. i seriously didn't expect it...i was as alicia says "calmly nervous" and kept going "i won't get in, i won't get in" but i still did. oh well, i shall try my best then. A SERIOUSLY BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAVE VOTED FOR ME. i honestly thank you from the bottom of my heart. life goes on so meanwhile i have a bunch of things to do. im becoming a procrastinator and that isn't a good sign. so bye for now.
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TEACHERS' DAY!
It was teachers' day today and I must say that even though I'm not a teacher, I enjoyed it tremendously. NY makes every year's teachers' day not only special for teachers, but students AND parents. I think this makes everyone in the NY family feel welcome.
In the morning, Dileen and I had to promote the SEADC thing and I thought that it would just be fine and simple. However, it turned out quite the opposite. I found out that my speaking skills have great room for improvement and I was so nervous talking in front of the whole school! I guess I was a bit too nervous that I read one word wrongly...HAHA.
Then we had the CLASS PARTY! I ate a lot and Shaoting's brownies are simply FANTASTIC! I liked the hash browns Zexin brought too and Shuting's onion rings and nuggets were just as delicious. Hehe I ate so much that I became bloated.
After the class party, we watched the teachers' day concert! It was sooo fun! I really liked 409's performance it was super funny. As for Evelyn's class, I must say the PCK in her class is quite realistic and convincing! The teachers performance were SUPER FUNNY TOO! I enjoyed it a lot AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! THIS year's concert is WAYYYYYYYYYY better than LAST YEAR'S!
Then went to AMK Hub to meet Kimberly and Samantha. We watched Bourne Ultimatum and it was quite a nice action-packed movie though I kind of dozed off a little bit when Noah Vosen was given commands to the rest of the CIA officials but I love the ACTION! Haha! I'm really tempted to read the book now and so I'm sort of searching online ALL ABOUT IT. Then we went to J8 because we were feeling bored and we ended up at the library instead. HAHAHA. I still think Kimberly reads avidly and I'm still awed by it even though it's been years I know about this. Haha.
I've also been thinking lately...is it because of my practicality that I quit pursuing my own interests? Or is it because I'm so fickle-minded that I am unable to identify dreams that I have and just ignore them? I don't even know whether they are dreams or not and I don't know if I have the perseverance. SIGH.
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The Girl Who Leapt Through Time
I love this movie, The Girl Who Leapt Through Time! (i shall not put too many exclamation marks because someone told me it's a grammatical error to put more than one) It's such a WONDERFUL movie; I'm impressed with the way the director makes a mirroring role of makoto, which is her future self, and chiaki is such a nice person. Makoto is honestly very hilarious though she goes through a stage of development during the movie. I honestly think her time leaping style is very funny! The portrayal of makoto is rather well done because she is easy to relate to. She may have a super ability of being able to leap through time but she has human flaws too. THIS MOVIE IS GREAT! I recommend it to everyone!
So the day was great today because of this movie but there's one really irritating issue that just ruined my day. I can totally empathise with hoon now why she always complains about her mother. I mean I get it that humans have flaws and make mistakes too but my mom? Whatever she does is totally contradicting to what she's telling everyone to do. I'm darn irritated by her. What the heck...Whatever I'm just going to ignore, ignore and ignore. I'll just go about my own business. I know I need to be EDUCATED but I don't need to be morally educated by her. As if she is THAT well morally educated. It's all a vicious cycle; whatever she did to her own mother, I'm doing to her. She keeps saying that my children will do the same thing to me...so isn't her children doing the same thing to her? HAH.
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TRAINING
Today, we got back our compo timed trial. I realised I'm seriously deproving by writing "mundane and straighforward" stuff. I'm lacking PRACTISE and EXPOSURE. I don't know why I can't think of creative plots like before...it's like my mind goes blank and I can't think of anything with a twist to write.
I need to save myself. OURSELVES, more specifically, the whole class needs to save themselves. What Dileen says, I whole-heartedly agree. And I just want her to know that I'm not competing with her. I just want to maintain a good academics record.
Training was quite fun today. It wasn't as tiring as I had expected but I must say the hopping-with-leg-in-the-air thing was really quite testing for our muscles...But I can tell you it must have strengthened my ankle by at least 2 times. I need to strengthen my ankles. I no longer want to wear ankle braces and get a 'scary tan line' as Shirlynn says.
I went home and surprisingly saw dad at home. I thought I would have to sucuumb to a pitiful dinner but yay, at least we went to the food court. I saw this whole row of new shops behind. They are really great! Wished I could eat out there with friends after end of year examinations. I realise that my social skills are getting worse. I need to stop cooping myself behind books or the computer. They make me inhumane.
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CHANGE BLOGSKIN AGAIN!
Hehe I changed blogskin again! I realised that I'm a xi xin yan jiu person...I get sick of blogskins just for a span of er...3 days?! Haha!
I chose this one coz I suddenly feel that food is such a hot topic these days. I mean for individual speech, SOOOOO MANY people used food as a topic (me included:D)! And a lot of people are resisting food (like me sometimes:D) coz they want to JIAN FEI! HAHAHA. So all the yummy food there is to tempt you... Also, after having witnessed peishan's cravings for chocolate (which is ALSO a type of food), I decided that I would not need to look for pictures of food to put in as posts to cheer my blog up....coz YEPP!!! There's already food on it! Yay, this is such a meaningful skin. HAHAHAH FOOD SKINS ARE FUNNNN.
Well, actually I don't understand why there's a shoe on the plate but don't be fooled by it and think it's food ok... (im being lame) It's MOSTLY food...the shoe looks ok but I definitely won't be able to fit in it and I doubt you would ever catch me wearing something like that. AHAHHAHA.
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LITERATURE AND ASSEMBLY
Hehe I'm updating again. KEEP IT UP YUXUAN! Haha, I'm talking to myself. Today was a rather peaceful day. We had the assembly talk on our subject combinations and I don't know why I just keep thinking I should take triple science and BSP. I know that deep down I am just not sure of what to choose; what future I should have. Maybe I'm just saying that I'm going to take triple science and BSP to reassure myself that I've already made a choice and I'm perfectly clear-headed about which path I want to take in my next life.
Haish, I don't know. Maybe I'm just in a dilemma because I've never even thought about my interests. I seriously think that I'm someone with little spiritual developments (is that how you call it?) because I realised I've been studying for the sake of results and just studying to gain knowledge and be smarter. I haven't been thinking about studying to fulfil my career aspiration in the near future. I guess I'm just short-sighted.
Then I had literature class. I'm always feeling scared and insecure about it, mostly because I'm afraid of making mistakes (there, I confessed it). I know that my literature is totally not good at all, so I'm afraid of making mistakes and the more I make, the more I think that I'm bad at it and that I totally hate it. But I really feel more accomplished now that I am finally able to turn in a decent piece of assignment. I shall strive to improve harder because I realise that one cannot live without literature. Literature deals with the feelings of human nature; if I'm just a science student, caring only about facts, I will really become so unfeeling like Thomas Gradgrind. I don't want to be a robot or a block of living corpse. I want to be human.
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DENTAL
Today was a rather pleasant day besides the council meeting where I got a little freaked out.
Mostly, our lessons were quite relaxing: Language arts we listened to speeches; Dance we had this exchange student from Tasmania (Rosie- is this how you spell it?) ; Math with the Rosie again and we just continued with standard forms (a topic which I realised I am rather careless in); Science we continued with inheritance (a topic that I realised was way too confusing because of the minuscule sizes of the specimens we are studying- chromosomes, DNA, genes and alleles); drama (teacher not in but we were all obedient and responsible students so we rehearsed our item) and contact time was just the usual stuff.
Ok, here's the thing. I totally didn't know that there was council meeting today. I only realised in the morning so I thought ok maybe it's just the usual stuff. I didn't expect this attire check thing...only that I had this really bad feeling the moment all of us sat down and the councillors started coming in. HAHA I realise gut feelings are sometimes really very helpful, only thing is if you ignore it er....
So we had this attire check thing. SIGH as usual my socks too low. I seriously got to stop wearing that pair of adidas shoes because the top is too high; the converse one is WAYYYY lower. I shall from now onwards, wear stuff that is advantageous for me. And just my luck, I wore a pair of socks that was either: a) too new and couldn't be stretched OR b) shrank somehow in my mom's REAALLLL GOOODDDD washing machine. So now onwards I got to be more conscious about my attire and stuff.
For dental appointment, the dentist was nice and decided to take pity on me so he sort of did something to the chain links or something and made it more suitable for my tolerance towards pain. HAHA. And I'm really feeling very bad for missing the ENTIRE training. SIGH. I know it was impossible to reach there like 1 hour before training ends ( I seriously am not even sure whether it ends at 6 or 5.30 nowadays). But I only reached home at around 5.30 coz of the waiting and travelling time. SIGH. I don't want to miss training. Now I just got to hope my fitness can be maintained. And I suppose that can only be solved if I'm disciplined enough to go train my endurance this weekend.
a million apologies for missing training.
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UPDATES!
I'm soooo tempted to blog again! Haha a nice blogskin motivates and tempts you to blog more often! DOUBLE POST TODAY!
Ok I realised I have been using exclamation marks for my introductory paragraph so I guess I'm a little too enthusiastic/hyper...must curb my feelings a little...
I've been thinking a lot nowadays...especially now when I'm suddenly feeling so free. I know this period of relaxation is not natural and somehow even when I relax I feel uneasy (although this uneasiness sort of fades away when I get too carried away with my leisure activities). It's like I started playing audition recently...and it's just so NOT ME to play a game? Furthermore, now I even get addicted to the game?! I know this is totally NOT good for my studies but I just cannot control myself.
It's like I kind of lost some of the energy and strength I used to have in the past...the motivation and drive to push on and actually DO something to make my studies improve. It's like last time, I used to have both DRIVE AND EXPECTATIONS to push me on. Now it's just expectations and expectations alone aren't enough to fuel whatever I'm supposed to do. Argh and all these problems just has to come at such a BADDD timing like this when I'm supposed to choose subject combinations this year? I want to do well...I mean it's not just ME that I'm setting high expectations of myself.
I know everyone knows and just shakes their heads and sigh at me because I'm always talking about my expectations, complaining about my results because they don't reach my expectations. SOOO MANY people believe that I'm the one that is totally behind all this. I'm the one who wants to set high expectations for myself just because I WANT TO DO IT. But no one has ever thought about whether I set these expectations because I REALLY want to do it?
Well, to get things clear, a lot of times, it's not because I really want to do it. I do not deny that I want these expectations because I know I can only improve if I have higher expectations. But factors like teachers and parents play a part too. I mean has anyone even thought about this: If I do not set high expectations for myself, end of this year I get really lousy grades, all the teachers who already set high expectations for me start shaking their heads and go, "Wah, 3rd in level last year deprove so much?" I mean who wants that to happen to them? Now people might say again, "Who ask you to do so well in the first place then get yourself all the pressure?" But who in this world DOESN'T want to do well? Wanting to be first, to come out tops, to emerge as the winner is something natural. All human beings HAVE this urge.
So sometimes it's not really me that's like that. Not because I want to do it. It's because I have to do it. I just feel like I'm suffocating already.
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WHOOPEE!
Yay I was soooo happy today! Finally, at LONGGG LASTTT, I finished the individual speech. OH MY GOSH you know I spent like dunno HOWWW MANNNYYYYY HOURRRSSS on that script?!!!! I had to like read it nearly 8 times to get my timing right and i had to keep cutting down just because I overshot the time limit so some of the content had to go. But I'm so glad that I did my speech quite okay-ly (this word doesn't exist)...only my posture has a problem. Thank goodness I could still be heard even when I was having kind of a sore throat!!!
We had SPA assessment today...and I'm not sure if I did it well...because I was totally blanked out at the questions part but the rest I could do it. Then we got back our history papers. SIGH. Only 14 out of 16 and people like zexin and althea can get 15 and tongzhen got FULL MARKS! I wonder is it because our new teacher marks more leniently? Or was it that our previous teacher marked too strictly? I really wonder...
Then we went to see our chinese teacher and I asked about which elective I'm most suitable for...hmm I guess teachers and parents say about the same thing...I'M SUITED FOR BSP! I shall set my mind on it then...and triple science is definitely what I want to do. Because I don't see the point in taking a humanities subject when I can take IH which has humanities in it. Anyway, I think I should be more suited for science as both my parents were science students? I really really hope my end-of-year examinations results can pull up my average grade...I DON'T WANT TO GET LIKE 79% average or something if its 80% its BEST. I just feel like maintaining now because I know I didn't do well at all. I need to do well; I WANT TO GO TO JAPAN FOR HOLIDAY! BAD RESULTS NO HOLIDAY AHHHHHH!
As you can see, I've changed my blogskin again...its PEISHAN's old one:) I think its quite nice as a blogskin :)) Ok I shall stop here.
P.S. Peishan I UPDATED! Hah no more complaints from you now.
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A NICE NEW DAY!
Hello im back again on blogger after SOOOOO LONG! So rare to see me, eh? I think today was a day worth posting and uh, I was just kind of in the mood so I decided to post:)
90TH ANNIVERSARY CLOSING CEREMONY
We had the 90th anniversary closing ceremony in the morning and it was SOOOOO nice! I enjoyed watching the performances it was rather entertaining, especially since our class got a GREAT seat which was somewhere near the centre so we got a spectacular view! The performers really put in a lot of hard work- I can tell totally- and I must say that their facial expressions were really convincing! SO COOL! However, the only not-so-cool factor was the part when we were all squashed up together like a pack of sardines in the hall...so it was REALLLY warm but I guess the temperature went down a little because of the downpour outside. We were ALMOST going to have an early recess but sadly, sadly, the teachers decided against it because the canteen vendors have not finished preparing enough food for the entire student population:(
LESSONS
Hence, we trooped back in disappointment to the classroom...One comforting thought was that we missed 1/2 hour of math lesson although I don't actually see the point of how it is good that we miss math since it isn't so weary for me...we had math quiz and alicia and almost half of the class begged mr chiang for 1/2 hr to do revision. LOL! By that time, lesson would have ended! But we ended up compromising on 10mins:D I'm neutral about that.
Language arts was next and I was having mixed feelings about getting back our scripts and all...but it turned out we had to go through the tips for individual talk first...but we still got back our comprehension at least....*SOBS* I did so badly..didn't even get A1 if I converted it to percentage....SIGH. But I must say my summary really really saved me.
Dance was ok only that the 20 ti tui thing can die...my thighs are seriously aching...and my back hurt a little haha (just a little coz i didn't xia yao all the way:D)
GM
I thought GM was going to be really really creepy but it turned out ok I guess. The councillors were all talking about the different events which had just happened and giving updates to everyone...but I didn't know whether I was supposed to take notes or not so decided against it. One councillor went over the rules...wow so now i get a clearer picture of things. And I've got a buddy to check my attire and behaviour and all. WOW. Council equals great responsibility. REALLY GREAT responsibility. And the whole ducks race thing was super funny: "If you want a duck please sms me by 7.30/7.00 tonight) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
ASEAN SCHOOLS GAME!
We watched the game today! The opening ceremony had some primary school rope skippers who were really really pro! They made skipping look so easy and effortless! GOSH! I was quite impressed. Then Singapore Combined Schs 19s played against Brunei's team and they won! 100-7! WOAH! ONE HUNDRED GOALS!!!!!!!!The whole hall was so tensed up while waiting for our team to put in the hundredth goal! WELL DONE! It's sooooo amazing...100 goals! SO COOL! Then again, they really played superbly! Must take note of how I should defend better. Then can IMPROVE! HAHA. Just like that pro GD. From this game I realised I could have improved a lot more on outside interceptions because there are just so many opportunities to intercept balls out there!
Be Strong, Geum Soon
Sigh, today was the last episode...I just finished watching it and I'm so happy for Jinshun (Geum Soon) even if she's a fictional character...she's such a kind-hearted person man! I shall try and emulate her since she's so nice coz good deeds always come back to you when you do a good deed. Haha! Doubt my plan will work though. But its a nice drama. KOREAN DRAMAS ARE ALWAYS NICE! Sad, now there's no more korean dramas. I'm still waiting for goong/princess hours 2 to come back out. CAN'T WAIT!
There you go, a nice detailed post of one nice day in my life. Only now its back to the unnice part- INDIVIDUAL TALK. So anticlimax...*tsk tsk*
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Blaze
had friendly match for blaze...before that we met claudia and jocelyn for dinner at ps n then it was realllll early. i couldn't eat much but i still managed to finish that bowl of korean ramen...then we walked around a bit coz claudia wanted to buy this candy dispenser thing and we went to this shop that they called sick shop which i dunno why and then went to muee then went action city...and jocelyn bought her tofuman which is green...haha jiinn has the yellow one.
then went there and played against these australian girls..one of them was real tall! and they are all so skinny its scaryyyyy. we won by 1 so cool right! but i played badly sighhhhhhhhh. nvr go get those floaty balls outside...i seriously think i became super rusty and i didn't offer much at the CORRECT timing...as usual. sigh muz go train on stamina and it should help me from gaining more weight since im getting FATTTTT. i went home myself ( WHAT AN ACHIEVEMENT) coz my dad didn't have his car (went for servicing) and then when he did get it back i juz got fed up and decided to go home myself. but he picked me up from the station anyway coz my legs were dying...
i slept soo fast on the sofa after i bathed but i didn't go to bed coz my hair still wet...when i really couldn't take it i juz went to bed. it was so tiring! all coz i slept at 1 and woke up at 7 and then after blaze slept at 11. major lack of sleep.
TODAY
didn't go swimming since my mom said no and then i did a bit of vocabulary...played audition(since belinda introduced it to me i juz started playing and i think im addicted). bad bad bad me. get addicted liao. but i shall try to still balance my time. haha im juz not happy with the lagginess of my comp and my reaction really too slow lah. got to improve on that.
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Cross Country & Netball Outing
Ok, i know its kind of late if i only post now but still better late than NEVER:] we had cross country on tuesday and i seriously could have died running that...my fitness has been on the LOW again! but im so glad that i improved from last yr's 19th place to 14th! and hoon is pro as usual! 2nd!! after that had netball outing... we went to shihui's hse to watch movie after we went to j8 for lunch. our lunch was a bit of a mess...
first we could not take 156 to j8 so we had to take 157 to macritchie to change the bus. but then 157 one of them ignored us and drove off! AHHHH so we had to wait for the next one and when we boarded and alighted at macritchie to take 156, 156 was full! so there went our dear 156. so we had to take 52 to j8 which went around in a big circle first before we finally reached...
then when we reached, yanquan, me and valerie wanted to go change our shirts. so we went to the toilet while the rest waited for us outside kfc and then i thought yanquan was waiting for me outside the toilet so when i realised she wasn't there, i walked out and got a bit lost hehe. then when i came out, she was interviewed by this group of guys and i was a bit still lost...then i found out they were interviewing her about her opinions on eliticism then i had a go since the rest pushed me and THEN we decided to go for lunch...we were all hesitant to go to which places so we broke up and were super fickle-minded before we finally settled down into our RESPECTIVE venues:
yoshinoya:me cheryl evelyn hoon valerie
food court: jiamin chenjuan peishan zhengliang shihui liyi cherynn
subway: yanquan qingying
when we finished we had a tough time meeting AGAIN since we had to keep waiting for each other while the food court ppl went to buy yanquan's present n yoshinoya n subway people went to buy titbits and then there was a bit of a confusion about the titbits coz the food court people thought we hadn't bought and were going to buy so we had to tell them not to buy and come back but then they went shopping somewhere else and then cherynn had to buy bread coz she had sore throat and couldnt eat the titbits.
so at shihui's hse we watched movies...as usual had a tough time deciding which movie to watch. i realised indecisiveness is present in large groups. VERY MUCH PRESENT. so we finally decided on ella enchanted coz bloodrayne(yanquan's suggestion) was too gory kind of and we were already complaining when it hadn't started. then we watched a bit of lizzie mcguire and i kind of briefly explained the parts to peishan zhengliang and cherynn coz we skipped all the in front parts so i juz filled them in:D
then i had to leave for tuition and after that i sprained/shocked my ankle on this stupid curb. SO DUMB RIGHT?! now it swelled up. argh im soooooooo clumsy. thank god its not so pain now.
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SLACK DAY!
Today was the 2nd day after sabbatical week...generally the holiday mood was not gone yet but i must say that today was one of the most holiday-like moods EVER in the school terms i've experienced before. You see, with the exception of the Romeo and Juliet Literature Test which we had during the first period in the morning, the rest of the day was fun and SLACK! SLACK in the sense that there was no lessons which required sitting in a classroom and taking notes and listening to the teacher talk...basically the rest of the periods after the test were based on outside our classroom!
After language arts(test)was DANCE. I got quite surprised because the teacher suddenly told us to lie down and relax and can even shut your eyes and relax. GOSH i thought dance was always ti tui and then muz stretch a lot, then your thighs there ACHE a LOT! However, my predictions are always right because after the few minutes of lying down and getting to shut your eyes and relax, we reverted back to the old routine...only i guess it wasn't as bad...but ti tui got worse coz we had to do 8-4-2-1 and then we were all perspiring after that. I agree with what the teacher says though, perspiration helps you to let everything go so you can regain your focus again:)
After dance and recess was MATH! We continued watching night at the museum...in the TABLET PC LAB! so we got to use the tablet pc yay! the movie is quite funny but lame kind of funny...HAHAHA. that Hun guy is really quite hilarious! and it was so unexpected that those 3 old men turned out EVIL! i was kind of shocked that old people like them did not put that wisdom and experiences to good use but to SINISTER SCHEMES! HAIYO, what a BAD example.
After math was science and it was lab lesson. we had to extract the dna and my dna was at first quite ok (i didn't break it up) but then i guess when i put it down on the black paper i anyhow put and it got broken up. sigh, i guess im just not wen rou enough but its kind of NATURAL. i can't control my STRENGTH!
After science and lunch was DRAMA and i thought we were just going to run through the skit or something...but it turned out that the teacher wasn't present! muz have been involved in the 90th anniversary thing so we had more time to relax! And for class contact time, we went to the hall to learn the 90th anniversary song.
For training, it was the usual but i got called for some funny jumping thing...i think there's some problem with my jumping...muz be coz i arch my back too much and reduce my maximum height...i need to keep that in mind. and we got new captain and vice-captain! sigh how come jocelyn cannot remain? i suppose its logical that she has to leave some responsibilites to others if not she will explode so vernice is captain and claudia is vice now! haha im so glad i nominated claudia as canidate:) if not she wouldn't have been vice cap...looks like TRAININGS are going to be interesting with this new change:D JIAYOU TO VERNICE AND CLAUDIA!
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6 of 28!
we got in, we got in, we got in!all 6 of us yay! i dunno why but im suddenly feeling so proud and happy for all of us and all the 28 people! but i also want wonder how the rest feel and wished they could cheer up and won't be upset. im still kind of in a state of SHOCK. i seriously didn't expect it...i was as alicia says "calmly nervous" and kept going "i won't get in, i won't get in" but i still did. oh well, i shall try my best then. A SERIOUSLY BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAVE VOTED FOR ME. i honestly thank you from the bottom of my heart. life goes on so meanwhile i have a bunch of things to do. im becoming a procrastinator and that isn't a good sign. so bye for now.
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I'm Yu Xuan and fifteen this year. This means I'm sadly not entitled to many things. My life is under control currently (thanks to my very practical and sensible parents). I may appear sensible to you but you must never judge a book by its cover.
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